It is kind of weird for having just three people hanging around in our 'hot-conditioned' studio. Rethinking back to those weeks almost everyone is staying at the studio doing our work until late at night. We didn't have enough of sleep, we didn't have enough of time to rest, and we're practically just like the zombies.
And yay we've just done our public art presentation, well it was not exactly a 'yay' but in fact it was seriously a 'nay'. Sigh, out of six groups, only one of the lucky group got the chance to survive, like in the sense that they can keep their work display successfully, well unfortunate to the others, which including me, had to do it again, I mean, change here and there, improve this and that as what our lecturers told. It was really disappointing to all of us, probably some may simply okay with that perhaps they never care. But I seriously care about it so much. One is that we've put in effort in doing our work and at the end it turns out nothing, NOTHING. And it was pretty embarrassed like when you got criticism from lecturer, especially that god-damn-who-the-heck-the-architecture-lecturer-considering-himself-as-the-public-art-king, why it was like everything that he said is right? Okay I admit he does have his own perception and able to convinced people to agree with, but our lecturer? Come on, before his arrival, you guys like just nod nod nod to what we have said, our concepts, ideas, and all the crap design principles. But after he came about and start to comment, you guys repeatedly did the same thing, even though in fact we did whatever you guys told us to do. Like some of the ideas are actually coming from you guys, but you guys never tried to defend us. Hmm. Okay that's fine. Of course we can't put out something incredible yet, as we are just the first year students. Yes how annoying it is to be the 1st year student. You have to be fantastic even when you have only learned little things. Like you have to know everything and have those thinking like the serious professionals. Come on, it is the real challenge for us to do public art, it is for the public, there is so much risks of it. That's why we get all those criticisms harshly, we didn't make use the space available, we didn't relate our art work to the public, we didn't have such wow factor to attract people come and interact with our work and blah blah blah. Anyway, that's the part of the learning process, no matter how disappointed we are at the time and we have been asked to redo our work in one given week time.
Plus the heartbreaking truth, I can't go back home during the study week. Ok I know we are not supposed to go back but sigh, knowing that we got tonnes of work to do, but seriously we simply need to find a gateway to escape from all of this stressful life.
Stressful life, when we going to stop from experiencing it. I guess never uh? And thinking about the fist formation theory that my agri lecturer told us, you have to consider many factors as much as possible to make something impossible possible. But the most important thing is of course your own attitude, the major key to make everything happen smoothly. Sometimes when you think, or when you actually have put in so much effort in doing something, but anyhow somebody will still drag you down or something like that. So you can't predict anything and it just happens to be that way. Blaming or complaining that's how come across all the time in one's life. People never satisfied. And one's never able to fulfill the others need, because they will just keep requesting. And of course who never asking and requesting. Ya we all basically the same, cause we all living in the same world. World of that is keep changing.
So, I learn things everyday, learn to reject people, learn to accept, to disagree, to blame, to complain, to change, to become better person.
